heartbreak

LACK OF FRENS - that's me
need lots lots of fren
i really can say that if i confirm u as my fren that u will be treated like a king/queen
but if u are not in the list of my fren, i'm sorry to say, i not consider u as fren

when i was young eventhough till now, if fren need my helps no matter how i also will do it for u
except i really don wan and cant
how my mom scold me stupid i also help without asking repayment

is that the way i treat fren let your feel sesak nafas, stress, hate
is that the way i treat fren WRONG

ya, i really look serious on this
cause this thing like keep on happen on me

heartbreak because of fren
get scold because of fren
lose because of fren
lost because of fren

my mom always say that i look on fren more than family
waht also fren go first
ya i am..
cause i really scare to lost them

somebody said : living is for own and not for others
but to me, fren are part of my life too

am i meaningless to the person i call fren

i felt that i am....
fren let me felt that..
i really feel that i am not to be appreciate..

sunday working

i'm so tired for today...
work at times square today...
yes is sunday working...!
and also for the next sunday!
and i'm the mc for today's event
so shit!!!!
i just can give my self 3o over 100 marks...
sien....
i really wanted to do it well...
but is just....
haih....

1 1/2 hour ago...

open page for writing something on blog.. but now is already 1 1/2 hour ago...
still got nothing can be write
i post photo in facebook and not here....
so i have to post some on here too....
but give me some time....

touch ... hard way

i'm touch read comment that my fren left for me...
i really touch and thanks you guys
cause your are beside me

i actually felt lonely...
cause i can only tell and show my actual feeling at here

may be i think more on my foot..... but did i....
i think i have a narrow thinking

but i really hate the current now...
again....
where am the LAST TIME me.....

why i keep on get stuck by this kind of thing!!!
why i cant get through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got face it eh!!!!!!!!!

ok according to previous thing, i really cant talk with my parents, i don dare.....
ya most probably the same thing will happen again...

this time got new thing...
i think i did it wrong...
the exact incident i really dont know how to express
but this time i really think i wrong and cause my fren in ...... very hard way
feel sorry and bad for her
how should i help her....
.......................

i really have to live back with optimist thinking, feel!!!!!!!
if not i'll get mad so soon......

i cannot DOWN anymore.....
my name is dAwn not dOwn!!!

HHAHAHAHAHA......