tragic ?

what a tragic me
cause within a week i scratches my car for twice
feel shit right ?
well even though is unseen scracth but still i cause it
and this twice i also did it while i used my brain so hard to think of other things which i can't remember now
don't know what stupid thing i'm thinking at that time
well ~ actually driving car by not paying attention with it is so so so so super dangerous
anything can happen to cause you DIE
well is true and do you want to die with just like that, because of your careless
or other ppl die because of you
sound serious and scary but is TRUE
but i just can tell like this, i don't think i will do like this
hhahahahah ~ sound silly
just a final advice~!
DRIVE SAFE man ~~~~~~~~~~

moody

moody dawny - my new name
just put it for fun

oh ~ ya ~ my fellow freinds forget to tell your that
i am a TEACHER now .... i mean i will start this teacher work on may 15......
hm... actually i consider is a part-time job
working days is tues-sat
tues-fri ~~~~ work from 2.30pm to 7.30pm
sat ~~~~~~~ work from 9.00am-1.30pm
salary for me this new teacher is RM500.00

is ok for me ..... i think as long as i can get a job in this moment is consider GOOD JOB~!
good job as in for me ~~~~
hahahahahahahhahahahahahaha

women

how a women should be?
know everything or don't know everything?
know a bit don't know a bit?
for me i think have to know every comment sense or know everything best
even have people to support to rely on
but do you think before that the person you trusted most will betray you one day
not that don't trust on he/she
but at least anything happen you still know what to do, what can be do
agree? not agree?
yup also saw form the same drama that i so hit in
her husband want to divorce with her and also get the son, he planned for so long so he can legally get his son and divorce with his wife easily. The wife now need to re adapt the world that she has been left out for so long seen she married. Is really a hard time for a women that knowing nothing of this 'new world' for her.
knowledge is really important for a person~!!!!!!

thief VS cops

wow wow wow wow
the newest hong kong drama "cacth me now"
is the latest drama i most wanted to wacth
is talk about between the action taken by THIEFS and COP for a same case
both side also have thier own professional people incharge of certain pose
i more interested in THIEF side. SO here have 5 positions :
master mind > demolition > mad drive > shooter > hacker
what will you want to be?
i want to be HACKER ~!!!!! or SHOOTER
shooter is more charisma but if gotto choose hacker is my first choice
i can't be mind master, even i want to be
but i very respect the mind master, whitout his mind others can't work well and succeed
but of cause team work also very important ~!!!!!

*proudly present and strongly recommended this yo all of you

shit

so JA DAO ~~~~
my wifi connector SPOILED already
how can ~ this is my life sesame oil , without it no fun at all
wht can i do without it
BUT why i can online now ?
cause i rob in to other's ppl house and stole thier line to use
so pity la me ..... have to do until this just to get LINE
hope my next post not about i been LOKAP~~~~

rainy day & night

plan to wake up for stairs jogging today
but when i woke up at 7.00am, my place rain so heavy and really lazy and very sleepy
so i CANCEL today's plan
cannot everyday also because of this cancel because of that cancel
i don't want do 1 day then rest for 6 days.....
NO WAY ~!!!!
cannot let this thing happen again ~~~~

just now when to a GULUNG TIKAR shop again
this is my 2nd time to go there and see anything can be grab
so i walk and go, is actually near by but is tired to walk la
and i will walk cause i know i just need to walk go and back by car
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
so on the way i'm walking, is drizzling and is feel so good when those rain water touches my skin
while at the same time i'm listening to KIM XIAH JUN SOO' s Rainy Nights
feel so good ~~~~
while my friend ask why don't i listen to RUNAWAY this song and run to my destination
oh ~ No ~
tired oh~~~~~~~~haha ^^

应该吗？

我妈她again重返来吉隆坡了
我是真的真的很想她一直陪伴在我身边
以前我什么事都会跟她说因为我以为她会是那个很了解我的人
可是什么都变了
她不再是了，可能我自己也不了解自己吧
我不再告诉她我的事，我的烦恼，我的想法
在家我也只做我自己的东西，每参她们的聊天
现在这种时刻我还可以上网也是为了逃离
真的不知该怎么面对家人
外面不再下雨可我的心却怎样也平静不了
逃来家附近咖啡厅感觉太棒了
这里的歌手唱的好好噢，不好意思我刚刚才发觉这间店的存在
情调也好好，视野也很棒
我这样做对吗？
每一次和妈妈谈谈下，我都会哭。就是会哭。
我很怕和她聊，没有一次我是不哭的
何时才可以恢复呢？
因该是我的问题吧~！？

story #8

HOTEL

After check in all those, is already 3.30 am.
All the crew, NV plus I all exhausted, but of cause they are more exhausted than me
The hotel they will be staying for 4 days 4 nights are the second expensive and really high class , grand hotel in Malaysia. Not a usual or normal citizens like me can entered. This hotel is made up by 25 floors not included the basement parking and lobby. Of cause like others hotel, the highest the more expensive and grand, while our super star NV will be staying at 2oth floor, and the whole floor were taken by them which have only 5 rooms, and each of them will be taking 1 room. While for me, I’m staying with of cause my darling Donn. What will you think he can do to me, that he need to rehearsal from day to night from night to day, tired like hell, what mood also gone, see bed of cause think of rest more and wanted to sleep more.

Before entering to Donn’s room, that in front of Micky’s room
Micky : Donkey ~ be careful of him o ~
Me : Why ?
Micky : He is not a gentleman as how you think.
Me : You sure ?
Mikcy : Of cause, at least I am his roommate man.
Me : So means that he molest you before ? HAHA ~
Micky : sigh ~ of cause not, is because you are a girl ~!
Me : ok ~ thanks for your concern. But I still think he more secure than you. HAHA~
(Donn which from the beginning already beside me also can’t stand to laugh)
Micky : Your eyes really got problem~!
Me : Ok ok ~! I treat you back good mean tomorrow ya ~! Is really late now, you better go sleep. You know that you are that kind of people will get angry while you not enough sleep.
Micky : Ok then ~! Night ~ really beware of him.
Me : OK~! (turn back to Donn and walk to his room with him)
Me : Will you?
Donn : What?
Me : Will you hmmm……..
Donn : I will is because is you. But I know now is not the right time and place so I won’t for this moment of time.
Me : When is the right time then?
Donn : When the time is here I will let you know.
Me : Then is …….
(I can’t speak out anymore. Once get into room, Donn already silt my lips with his lips)
(This is our 1st real kiss, haha ~ I think Donn have wait this moment for long time, even thought for also YES)

Donn : I have wait this moment for so long.
(I’m so blush and I don’t know what to say)
Donn : Don’t tell me you are not!?
Me : Of cause I am.
Donn : hoho~~~~
(after saying that I can feel my chicks more blush and hot)
(*muacks* a kiss on my lips)
Donn : Now we have to get rest, later on I need to get up on 9.00am.
Me : Ok ~ then you need to unpack your stuffs?
Donn : You want to help me?
Me : Of cause no prob!
Donn : thanks dear~
(I just smile back and gentle kiss on his lips.)

Then help him to unpack his stuffs, super star stuffs really not easy to pack and unpack. Ghosh ~ just Donn himself already has 2 big luggage and this not include concert’s costumes. Sum more Donn is a person that really look into his outlook, his appearance.

After help him unpack is already 5am in the morning, without saying anything 2 of us straight lye on bed and fall into sleep.

hmmm …. As a normal people, normal couple sure will hug each other and sleep, neither us.

*to be continue …………

relaxing me

so relaxing man
this stupid girl really know how to waste money
sum more eat 2 sets of Starbucks new special
breakfast that ONLY cost RM4.75
got to eat and got to drink
sitting from morning till evening
she can fight with workers
just workers will stay longer than her few hours and need to work
^^
i am the stupid girl
will i been slap by jealousies people ~!?

story #7

After hang up the phone than I just look around again. OMG getting more and more fans are here, sum more got fans rent for the whole bus and just to see them. Well if I’m not Donn’s girlfriend I will also doing the same thing. Again fans are really horrible.
Wait for around 15 minutes, I saw Donn’s manager bro – Kent.

*every member of NV also have their own manager bro, and this manager bro are lead by a guy and known as head manager. haha~ I call the 5 manager bro, ## bro, but the head manager I name him GIANT BRO. hoho ~

Me : Kent bro ~!!!
Kent : Yo ~ wait for long already ?
Me : Nope, even though is yes I also will say no.
(Kent use his hand rub my head)
Kent : Come I bring you to car first, they will come out 5 minutes later.
Me : OK~

10 minutes later …..
While you know, as a famous artist time sometimes cannot be punctual, but doesn’t mean that they can simply waste their time other’s time.

Wow ~ is so terrible and scary inside KLIA arriving hall
I can see and hear from the car, those excited screaming and voices from arriving hall
Fans all so excited and high, keep on want to grab for NV.
Lucky there have policeman as human wall to separate fans with NV.
OMG those fans are really crazy and scary, very lucky that I’m not in there.
Really pity to NV also, have to go trough all this, but this also show the popularity of them. Should happy for them also.
A very short distance of walk way from arriving gate to car, they have to use 15 minutes and hard way to get into the car. While me sitting inside the car looking for all those “ACTION MOVIE” showing outside the car. In car I was sitting the most inside and most behind of the car, this time the car they having is TOYOTA ALPHARD, and also my first time to sit on this car.
The first 1 who came in to car is Donn, and then follow by Micky, Emo, Nikki and Ben.

Donn : Hello my dear ~
(Me laugh so happily because of 2 things. 1st of cause happy to see my Donn again. 2nd the complicated face expression and looks that NV haven not shown before)
(But at this moment of time I no give any reaction to Donn, cause outside the window, those fans still hitting the window expecting NV to see them, talk with them)
(While NV already get into car, car also hardly can move cause surrounded by fans, driver use his skill forcing the fans to move and by doing this, the car just can be totally free off after few minutes.)

While the car starts driving on highway, I give a great big hug to Donn.
Me : DARLING ~
Donn : Now just give me reaction o.
Me : Just now that kind of time that kind of situation cannot do anything also.
Donn : True also. (*Muacks* a kiss given by him on my chicks.)
Micky : oh~ please~ we are still inside the car man.
Me : I know you jealous of us, I forgive you. Hoho~
Micky : WHAT ~!
(Me and Donn laugh so happily)
Me : Where are we going now ?
Donn : Dear now is middle of night, 1.30am, as you think where are we going?
Me : oh ya ho ~ now so late already. HEHE~!
Micky : DONKEY ~!!!!! Can you wake up please, don’t show your stupid ness with your stupid face.
Me : hmmm ………………………… ok
Donn : Don’t take into heart, he not purposely to say that.
Me : Do you know the sentence that you are not saying it purposely is always the true of how you think that person deep is deep inside your heart. Is your true thought deep in your heart.
Micky : Sorry that I hurt you, I really don’t mean it. I ….
Me : HAHA~ is ok. No matter means it or not, I’ll accept it and forget it. Chill man everybody. I really ok.
NV : ……………………
(Donn hug and gently kiss my chicks)
Me : I’m ok. (gently telling back to Donn)
Me : oh ya ~ your promise me to bring me 1 thing from Korea right. Did your prepare it.
(very fast Micky shouted and said, may be he felt sorry to me)
Micky : Of cause. Later on give you.
Me : Nikky? Emo?
Nikky : Yup ~!
Emo : Em ~….. (nodded his head also)
Me : How bout you darling.
Donn : Of cause~!!!
Me : Good Good ~ can’t wait to see what your have prepare for me

Not to confuse your, my name is actually DAWN, yup which is same pronounciation, hoho ~ but I asked them to call me donkey instead of dawny, dawn, ETC.
Not a stupid name, is really ok for me to call me Donkey, as long as I not look like donkey or has donkey personality then everything is ok.

* to be continue ……….

kind

what kind of people you think you are

yes la again i in Starbucks ~ but today they had a special breakfast set just cost me RM4.75 got to eat and got to drink, is worth man ~ may be later on i'll get another set, is till 2pm everyday i think

ok ~ just half an hour ago, a couple of mat salleh (but they ain't talking in english, i said mat salleh cause the women hair colour is blond) ...... at first i really don't like them , because they have no public sense , talking so loud till the whole Starbucks can hear them talking (but don't know what they talking about) ~ while me and them are sitting in the same role which is the window site ... so we also can see straight out to the window ..... an old women that can't walk well , even she use old man stick she also hardly can walk ...... of cause WE together saw this old lady ...... out of sudden the blond mat salleh women walk out , and i saw her gave money to that old lady , how much i don't know ~ and what came into my mind is the different action and thinking between Asian people and western people. A suprising thing i found, her husband can talk so well in malay, OH~

and why my title is KIND ~ got 2 meaning

1 . kindness of humanity

2. what kind (type) of people you are

for me the old lady is pity but i really won't give out money like that

ya even give out Little money also can help , but it this really work for the old lady

救得了一时救不了一世

may be you will think that i so mean and will get it back when i'm old ~

but to this reality world i think it goes this way

i will help if i have enough or more than enough ability ~

need to go strong .... my life goes on and on

one of the night , i really depress and down
still because of what should i do (don't want and no need to repeat again)
i keep on listen to PAK MICKY YUCHUN's One Last Cry ~
is really touch and he sings so well on it ~ that's what i think
one of the sentences is ...... HE NEED TO GO STRONG CAUSE HIS LIFE GOES ON AND ON
i suddenly heard this phrase ~ and think of it
is true no matter what had happened life still goes, time still goes, the world still goes, tomorrow still coming, everything still goes ~ nothing will stop it for you
the only thing can be do is get yourself strong , make yourself move , find a way out yourself ~
BUT many thing can be said easily and not work it easily
is better to work hard now and get a better future ~ in everything ~ !

then VS than

really funny to tell this
ok ~ if you guys have read my blog for sometime or may be most of the time been confuse by me
cause i use wrong for the word THEN and THAN
hahahahahhahaha ~~~~~~~~~
one day i finally got to ask my friend that told me once before i wrongly used that word instead of THEN i used THAN ~~~~ is been a long time i did this wrong
at that moment of time i really no idea what is the different for this 2 words
is really OMG ~!!!!!
is really a stupid mistake ~!
why have no body tell me for such a long time ~!
man ~! just my brain is not good in fuctioning ~! sigh ~
please people out there who read my blog or my sms or any words come out by me
if anything wrong PLEASE LET ME KNOW ~ ^^

have to be shown

becky and dawny

this is the nicest among the whole day of shooting ^^

the 2 of us look so cute ^^

one of friday i went out with becky, remember 1 of my post i said that i been takker by a negro

this is how i actually look on that day

nice ? pretty ?

hope i got good comment on this look ~

exercise

what you think for EXERCISE
is really a new thing for me this moment of time
cause even myself also can't believe that i eventually doing exercise almost everyday
really have the urge to slim down myelf
not till to thin just i never got the thin feel before so i really wish this time i can succeed with it
just jogging i don't think it work fast so i decided to run straicase
OMG ~ is really not that easy and use more energy to do it
but this really feel good
may be i to boring nothing to do so this is my only job for this moment of time
hope that i'm not just few minute excited then stop it
hope that i can maintian this heart till i succeed

story #6

12th December, night 11.45pm

Deng ... Deng … Deng …
Ladies and Gentlemen
Malaysia airline MH8034 from Korean has landed …….
Malaysia airline MH8034 from Korean has landed …….

My heart beat goes up till 100 plus, really nervous and can’t wait to see them, but of cause again because of Donn. But at this moment of time I’m still thinking why their flight is Malaysia airline and not Korean airline, just curious and simply think while waiting for them. I already wait at KLIA from 10.30pm, even though I knew that their flight will arrive around 12am, but just you know the feeling waiting for your beloved ~hoho. While waiting I keep on and on listen to their song, thinking back my first time met with Donn, the things we have did on the previous trip, is so memorable and meaningful for me. By telling truly this is actually my first love, that’s make me so in love and also many of wonderful thought appearing in my mind, which I actually know that may end up with the other way round, so just let it be and appreciate with what I am having now.
While waiting I very surprised to find out that got few fans knew about their reaching news and also waiting for NV. As I know that this decision of coming by tonight is secretly and last minute decision. Really surprised and scare of fans way of getting those news. Some of the fans I saw before on the previous trip that NV came for press con, and knew one of them is the Malaysia’s fans club leader. She is a pretty and gorgeous look girl, last year NV’s concert she was NV’s translator and also guide that bring them having fun around Malaysia.

Look again to my watch is 12.15am now, don’t know were they get down from the plane, don’t know where is the exact location they in, lots of such questions came into my mind. When I am nervously waiting for them, my phone ring suddenly, and Donn is the person who called.

Donn : Is that my dear over there ?
Me : Darling ~ where are your now ?
Donn : Just get down from the plane now want to take luggage and you know need to pass those procedure.
Me : oh ~ ok. Hoho ~ (is really really excited and so happy in my heart)
Donn : Are you ok dear ?
Me : Yup~! I’m alright, just really excited and nervous only.
Donn : Chill darling. How is the situation out there? Lots of fans out there?
Me : What is your expected answer or how you think?
Donn : Not to show off, how also got above 10 fans out there waiting is it?
Me : hoho ~ very sorry to tell I’m the only fans that are waiting for your.
Donn : hoho ~ is it ? Why is different from what I heard from KLIA crew told us just now? Why huh?
Me : CHEH ~ you knew it already still want to ask me, want to show off to me la.
Donn : Is want you to know the guy you are waiting is so valuable and precious o~
Me : Than how about the person who are waiting for you ?
Donn : Of cause my precious ~!
Me : hoho ~ so how should I meet with your ??
Donn : You drive ?
Me : nope ~!
Donn : That’s good. Later my manager bro will go out first than you look for him, I already inform him to look for you. You just follow him to car first, if not later on don’t know what will be happen having fans there. Got reporters there also ?
Me : Yup ~! Also have organizer in charge people here. Hoho ~ cause I busy body pretending as a normal people ask why got fans club standing here waiting for who. The in charge person so look down on me and don’t even answer me then walk away. Sigh, oh ya is a she and she know how to speak Korea also.
Donn : Later on have to tell me who is she, I will help you bully her back.
Me : I’ll think of it, cause she too pretty already. So HOHO ~ Where are you now ?
Donn : Already pass custom, than now waiting train to go your side there.
Me : ok than I’ll just wait at here for manager bro lo.
Donn : ok …….. see you later DEAR ~
Me : *MUACKS*

*to be continue ………………

story #5

Still got one week, NV is coming to Malaysia again. This time they are here for their 2nd concert in Malaysia. I’m so looking forward for their concert, which I’m so regret that I can’t go for their 1st concert. This time nothing can stop me from not going for this concert. Of cause the happiest thing is I can be with Donn again. Really can’t wait till the day they reach. The concert is held on 14th December which really my actual date of my birth and NV will reach KL on 12th of December. I remember that I have no tell Donn before when is my birthday, whether he knew it or not I also won’t tell him.
Well by telling him I think I may have wonderful day, but by not telling him I also will have a wonderful day by going to their concert. However my stupid and immature thinking will makes me happy on my date, because I’m thinking that NV this concert is purposely have it for me. HAHA ~ please all the NV’s fans don’t chop me into pieces.
11th December , midnight 2.00 am

Doo….doo….doo….doo…

Me : hello ?
Donn : dear ?
Me : oh~ my darling Donn ?
Donn : yup ~ ! Got miss me ah ?
Me : Of cause my darling.
Donn : Good girl. Why you are still awake haven’t sleep ?
Me : eh ……… what if I said I’m waiting for your call will you not angry with me ?
Donn : You serious ?
Me : Yup, cause I have the feel you will call and tell me what time is your flight reach KL, and also will let me know what time and where will you be flying off from. Is it ?
Donn : Wow, my girlfriend is really smart. Yup, I will be flying from Korea at 8.30pm and will reach KL around 12am.
Me : Ok than, I will go KLIA to welcome your.
Donn : So late, don’t come can ? I’m worried for you. Even though I wanted so much you to be there, but is really late and really worried you to go KLIA all the way alone.
Me : I will be there early and I so wanted to be there to welcome you, to see you, to hug you, to be with you. Let me go please, I really really really really want to be there. Or actually you don’t want to see me, not miss me, don’t care about me already ~!
Donn : Dear, you know I don’t mean that ~!
Me : *sib sob*(crying voice) Let me go, I go there alone but not going back alone right, so wanted to see you once you step down to KL. I hate that knowing that you are so near to me, you breathing the air which I am, you walking on the road which I am, but you are doing this without me besides. Is really sad and hurt me you know ?
Donn : You sound so serious I cannot say no lo.
Me : HURRAY ~! *MUACKS* Thanks darling.
Donn : When I reach I want the real kiss from you.
Me : hoho~ I’m here waiting for you lo~

* to be continue ...........

normal VS abnormal

from the moment i start know how to think
i already know that i am not a NORMAL person , as in a bit pshyco ?! ^^
i tend to think lots of things , what ever things also think
today is the 16th days i have rested after i resigned
i already rest for 16th days and tention for 16th days
even i don't have the so call normal life before
but now i'm totally living in an abnormal life for me
having those breakfast, lunch, dinner in unusuall at not according with the time
when people are sleeping i'm activating in that time
ok is sounds still ok till this moment BUT
while the thing is i slept at 3,4,5 this kind of time but wake up at 7.30am , 8.00am and nap is not needed
i even go for exersice while my parents, or people who knows me all like so suprise with my action
i also don't know why out of sudden i got this kind of exersice heart
but till now i just do keep on do it
sleepy but can't fall a sleep, hungry but not eating
really don't know when my body will can't stand all my this abnormal action

satisfaction OR again and again

how you rate your satisfaction ?
i use to be can satisfied by a little thing
but not say now i'm not, i'm still BUT according to my mom i like a jaws that don't know how to appreciate and satisfied with what i have now
to be really frank, you are the 1 who ask what i want to do next
i've also told what i want, and i also i know the thing i want to do is over. I REALLY KNOW ~!!!!!!!!!
asked me to think of other things else i really no idea
this kind of age, this kind of level studies
even though i KNEW my thinking is immature and naive, but is that totally follow what ever the parents said is call MATURE and GOOD CHILDREN ??
sorry to say that i think that kind of people they have just no use thier brain wisely ~!
if i follow what my mom want me to do, i know i will end up with blaming her , and if i ignore how their feeling and do what i want, will end up been hate and hurt my mom deeply
but i really don't want my rest of life is living in hurting my parents heart or blaming my parents by not leting me to do the thing i want.
this really make me to escape from all those, and i really don't know HOW & WHAT should i do
i really want to do what i wish in my this SHORT LIFE
human's life is actually short and pass fast
really no turning ponit once is past

my friend told me that i have repeating the same ingredients for my few post, i also notice that.
but i really can't stop myself by expressing it out in here
i have no where to tell, no where to express
when i can just stop writing this ingrdients.

speechless

again i'm staying in starbucks now
really the only place i can relax myself, surounding with coffee smell but i'm not drinking coffee ^^
and the song that have in here is sound nice for me, those i no hear before english songs, but i like it
i thouhgt i the pnly girl which so spoil come to this kind of high expenses place to online, but soaping myself in starbuck this few days, i cound out that a lots of TAR college students come here to study ~!
i like what ~! study in starbucks man ~!
it is a need ? students now a days really know how to spend ~~
i'm not saying i know how to SAVE ~ but at this moment of time i'm still using my own earning money , sounds a bit pround and LC but i think that i am spending myself with my own earning money is better than using parents money for this LUXURIOUS EXPENSES
while you can look around you, you will notice why people can buy or spend money easily on expensive goods, won't you think that where are their money come from? why they have such money to do so?
look around again i saw, above 50% also TAR college students.
why i know is TAR students, becasue now is the period of exam time for whole TAR students.

story #4

Be with him together already 1 month. Still thinking am i in reality or in dream. Still remember that day that night in KLIA. They eventually need police car to lead them to KLIA. Cause those fans are super crazy, they even rent bus or taxi to just followed NV. I really speechless to those fans. NV is really hard and can't get down from car to do boarding pass, so they need a local people and i'm the best choice there. So i went down and help NV to do, boarding pass. Of cause i'm not alone doing this, manager bro also help out to do. I even get the permission, the speciality to follow them, to lead them till they are up in the aeroplane. Rich and powerful people really can get things done easily. That moment that time i'm just had a mind a thinking that i can stay more longer with Donn. After those boarding things, i need to back to LIMO (stars cars are grand) to bring them down lead them to boarding gate. Is really dangerous man, those fans are really crazy, again for me i will also do the same thing. A short distance of road to walk , we the whole geng use almost half an hour hardly walk trough the human wall. PHEW is really a hard way to walk , scare hurt the fans and manager bro scare NV hurt by fans. Until inside the train that lead us to international boarding place, just can get off the craziness shout by the fans. But among the road to the boarding gate, got some fans recognise NV and want signature and taking picture with them, all this been rejected by manager bro. Some may be think is rude but, this is a way to protect them. While walking along, me and Donn non stop chit chatting and gave warning to each others. And also ask favor from NV's member to take care of themselves and also help spy on Donn. Always happiness time pass fast, the time of leaving me has reached. I tried not to drop any tears, tried so hard holding my tears , but just came out itself. Hugwith everyone of them, and lastly of cause MY MAN Donn.
Donn : Have to non stop missing of me, thinking of me, sms me, calling me.

Me : Em em

Donn : Cannot look at other guys, cannot flirt with others

Me : Em em

Donn : You have nothing to warn me ??

Me : (laugh) Of cause have. Cannot see other girls, cannot admire other girls, cannot compare me with other girls , cannot flirt with other girls, cannot go club so often, have to take good care of yourself

Donn : I will follow with what you said ~!! I won't dissapoint you ~!!

Me : Hee Hee ~ i also won't dissapoint you ~!

(great hug)

* to be continue ..............

story #3

This is the a wait moment for me . I'm actually sitting with NEVER EVER in their star's car , following them to the press conference , and because of this one of the manager bro manage to take a pass which same function as the manager bro . HOHO ~~ really think this is so fantastic . NV and manager bro tell that i just stick with them together ok already, no need to worried for others . The protective and precious feel is really really GOOD ~! (for me i really think so) and I'm actually very nervous and scare. Nervous been look down by others , scare is i don't know can i performed well as like represent NV. Manager bro tell that I'm one of the VIP , ask others to treat me as on e of the NV. I shock that manager bro will said that , and even arrange a nice and good view for the press conference. Do you imagine before that you will get this kind of good lucks and happiness. At least for me , I'm really really really happy and moment that can't be forget in my life. Can be said my brightness moment of my memories.

In the press con, the five of them talk, show their manners and maturity , really feel proud for them.This press con just can be enter by people who having the pass and medias, no one of the fans can enter. So outside the convention center is all the fans waiting to see their idol. I think if I'm not so lucky, i will also be the one of them waiting outside there to see NV. Even I'm so lucky but i still is fans , i just non stopping taking their pictures. The camera is bought by Donn noon that time , he said i should snap down the moment with them. Ya is true, so he bought me a video camera. Really thanks for his kindness and love fans heart. HOHO ~ The press con was hold for 1 hour, after the press con they will be having their dinner in Ampang one of the korean food restaurant , and will be going back to korean that night , 1.30am flight.

Of cause i follow them till the restaurant, also KLIA.

But the moment of on the way heading to KLIA , Donn suddenly hold my hand and tell

Donn : can you wait for me in Malaysia ??

Me : wait ?? normal wait ??

Donn : nope ! I hope that i can have a chance to get a long with you.

Me : are you serious with me ?? Don you really mean it ?? Or you just want to play with me ?? Or you having bet among your member ?? Or ......

(Donn out of sudden softly kiss on my lips)

Me : ......................... Do you know what are you doing to me and also to you ??!!

Donn : I'm normal and know what am i doing !!!! I will prove it to you !!!!

Me : .......................... I so so wanted to say yes to you . But i also really scare to get hurt from you.

Donn : I know you worriedness. I won't let you to be hurt. I promise you.

Me : But how can you tell you can fall for me as we knew each other for only 2 days.

Donn : Don't you believe in fall for first eye sight ~

Me : I believe but is this really can happen on me !?

Donn : Why not ~??? Trust yourself and also trust on the guy you fall for .

Me : How can you so sure that i fall for you ?!!!

Donn : Cause your eyes won't tell me lie. Your eyes can't keeo away from me ~!!!!!!

Me : ................................

Donn : See..............

Me : Don't sound so proud of it can a not ~!!!!!

Donn : Why not ~!?
(the other members is like laughing , and support us to be together)

(can feel my cheeck is really blush)

NV except Donn : So ........????????

(all using the hopping eyes looking at me , of cause Donn is the most)

Me : ........................ OK ~!!!! Let's have a try.

YEAH~!!!!!!! The whole car is like so excited , of cause deep inside my heart blooming , fire crackers all around my heart , is really happy. But also sad that his going to leave and back to his country his house and most importat , will he take this seriously ??!!

Donn : This is my phone, you use this phone to contact with me.

Me : HUH ~!???????????

Donn : haha ~ wake up lo. You not in dream girl. This is my spare phone, you can have it and there have NV all members phone number of cause include mine. I will contact with you with this phone and of cause your local phone. This is just for in case i can't contact you with you local phone. This is my address in korea and this is my phone number which i sure will answer. Don't lost it dear.

Me : Oooooo (just can say out this word and nodding my head)

At last KLIA is in front of me , the time of separating with them is here now.

*to be continue..................

story #2

micky:why don't you bring us go around kl area ?

me : your free ? your can ? where is your manager ? just the 2 of your ? now ? your not tired ?

micky : you have car ? you want ? you can at this time ? are we bodering you ?

(my heart beat go over 100 per minute man)

me : of cause no problem , but i have to tell that my car is not a grand car. Is just a normal car.

donn : not a problem as long as can move without using our legs.

me : than ok let's go. But where your wish to go or wanted to go . (suddenly think of may be they want to go for club) But i'm not going ot bring your to club o.

micky : hoho ~ how you know we SO wanted to go there.

(micky and donn laughing at there)

me : sigh ~~~~ so ????

donn : as you like and you think the place that we should be go.

me : ok...

(while discussing where to go , we already reach where my car parks)

donn : that Hyundai Matrix is your car ???

me : yup ~!

micky : wow ~! Is my country's car o. Now i can know this show how much you like us . haha ~!

me : please la. How can your face more thick than my body's fat. sigh~

(this time till donn & me laughing non stop)

me : ok than now i bring your to see kl tower , klcc garden , some club place but just pass by , my house area , hmmm than if got time later just see lo.

micky & donn : as you like. Drive safe .

than i bring them go around , look around , tell about kl city.

now is midnight 4.ooam and they still in my car and i still driving around.

at last i fecth them till their staying hotel.

donn : park your car and come follow us . (he sound so normal but this sound so big news for me)

me : what ~!!!!!!!!! Can you say it again ????!!!!

donn : i say park your car in parking lot and follow us.

me : why and what makes you said so ?????

donn : don't get me wrong , not to insult you , is just we think that is really late now and from just now you fecth us go around know that your house is not near. Now you sure very tired even you no show it out to us. You should get rest and we don't feel good to let you go back alone like this.

me : i know your won't have insult mean but just very suprise to me that your will treat me so good.

micky : in your heart think that we are bad ??

me : nope ! Just you know , your are my idol , super that kind . I really don't think of all this before . No friend swith super idol before how i know how the idol will treat their fans. As in i'm a lone fans for this moment. haha ~ just i also don't know how should i be also in this kind of happiness time. I really feel so sad that this is the only time that i can so close with your. I don't think i have the other chance to do this . But now you said come with your , can i really go with your ????

micky & donn : of cause ~!!!!!

me : yoohooo~~~~~ than i can meet the other members ~ ???

micky : sure can . But just beware of Emo. He just like his name so emotional.

me : oh ~ ok ~! i know this . As your super fans how also know a bit about your personalities .

donn : how yout think for mine and micky's .

me : hmmmmmm cannot and don't want to tell out now . haha ~

(the 2 of them sudden feel SIEN . haha )

(but they still bring me along with them. At first their manager brother is so fierce to me, kind of scold them why simply bring people with them and ask them where and what have been they do. I was totally shock of it , just know and realise it is true that they have been protect and JAGA by bunch of manager brothers)

Later on after they have tell, explain i also been accepted in the group ~ haha .Of cause happy with it man. Finally get to let know by the rest of the members . Also the same as i thought , Emo is really EMO to me , but i know he needs time to get along with a stranger. But the rest of the members also good to me and they blame Micky & Donn why no bring them along. Their conversations, their movements among the members are really harmonize , happy and fun. The rest of the time i just listen to them , telling me about how they been trained , how they treat each others when first meet up , what the funny things they haven been trough , how they feel when they get the highest awards , etc. Is really all about NV . At this moment i really really happy that i choose to learned korean.

The next day is their press conference in Sunway Pyramid on 7.oo pm. But because of we had talk for the whole night and we all slept until 12 pm noon time. I and Donn is the first one who wake up. And because i no bring any cloths along with me , after me and Donn had brush our teeth , he straight away bring my to oppossite shopping mall to buy me chloths. I really get schokc by his action, but i also following his way . After we shop is already 2 pm. That time when we back to hotel the rest of the member also wake up and washing up themselves . Forget to tell , while they still in kl , i've been HALF FORCE to be with them stick with them till they leave Malaysia . According to them is , they need a local friend as translator and i'm the chosen one. Haha ~ how can not happy with it. So i just following them around and bring them aroud .

*to be continue .......

heart

start from yesterday i started doing exercise
while today morning i also CAN wake up to jog around my aunt house
even is only for 45 minutes, but i sweat a lot and feel my mind so clear
the wind so nice blowing around my body
my mind no clear enough to think but still clear of my moodless feel
yesterday i just jog in house but the feel is so different u jog in house and out of the house
the air is the most different
i told my aunt and she so suprise but i just no border her
even my friend also sms me whether am i awake
but that time i already NGAM NGAM back for jog lo
hoho ~~~~~~ is tired but is healthy
really have to take this seriously
cannot so lasy treat my body
long no do exercise now feel my leg is not attach with me
hoho ~~~~~~~
i have purpose to do thins 1 o .......
done tell your first if i'm succeed i will tell

unbelievable day ~ 11-04-08

is a day i wokr up at 9 something in the morning
this day i have to meet up with becky
our dating time is 12pm meet at sunway pyramid
so have mood to make up pretty up myself
so for been so long i think after a year , i found back my make up set and make up myself
i feel is just normal for me but for others is sound so pretty .... so no confi with my make over
but when i went to petrol station i eventually saw a negro ....
i kind of purposely to let him notice my appearence ..... guess what .... i'm succeed with him man
hahahahha
is really really happy been takker ......... but he is a negro i kind ok scare of him
so he said i'm pretty , and he likes me ....... and i like what ~!!!!
like me cause i'm pretty ( ya know now a days ppl just look for pretty girls )
but i just reject him .... i really can't accept a negro .... even though know cannot judge a person by what care he drive but i think he is one of the rich breads .... he drove volvo
haha ...... i give up a nice chance ????
no la can't means can't
than the whole day i also feel i'm attacting people looking
wahahahhhahaha
but this cannot be do everyday
is tiring and no speciality
hoho ~~~~~~~~~~ at this time i really this a person outlook is really important for many kind of reason

continue ~ ??

everybody is like calling, me asking me to continue back my studies
am i really have to go back to my accounting degree ??
but i don't really want to waste that RM20k ++
i think i can kop can study ... but i just don't wan to use this money like this
i think of doing other than study back
really so sien of that like jor
may be people will say i'm spoil and super no use
but i just really don't want wish to continue back
is really not a use or what for me
cert may be important but i really don't wan don't want la
am i rude to my family and so so dissapointing my parents
i think i am but i really don't want to continue
what should i really do
or what can i do

story #1

For me he is just a idol , i like him seens i was a freshy in college and he also a freshy in entertainment field. That time surely not much people knew him or i should mean them. Yup he is one of the singer and also the lead singer in 5 guys group name NEVER EVER. NEVER EVER a.k.a NV , thay name it this name to tell their fans that they will never give up and ever to be together. Also want fans never left them, and ever supporting them. For me this name is name in such a meaningfull way, hoho. While actually i also have to thanks one of my friend , because she is the one who introduce them to me , and i just can know my HIM. To be frank , who don't ever dream to become his or her idol belove ? For me this is always my dream , and i really want it to be true but it seems like no way to be true , me in Malaysia which i don't know is he know this existing country and he is from Korea which a place so far from me.

Forget to tell , the person i like is name HERO, which i name it myself , and really mean hero for me. His actually name is Donn Kim YongHuan. The other members name Micky, Ben, Nikki and Emo.

2 years later, which out of suddent they are so famous and become well known korean guys group through out Asia countries. While in between this 2 years there were just on and off appear in my busy life. This bring them to move well aound the Asia countries. Company decided to has a Asia world tour concert for them , as a singer this is what a happening things right. Malaysia is include in this world tour country list. For me i really happy to knew that so looking forward for that, can't wait for that , but not my surrounding people screw up my dream my happy. My family, my friends all just said who are those guys , why looks so weird. Guy does not have a guy look. Scolded me, why i so stupid, i don't even understand why pay money to see them. Ya i really don't understand at that time , how can they just stop me by this stupid reason. At that time i really angry with them , because of that i have no chance to go for their concert. I no chance to meet my idol. I really sad , really hate them , and i had showed my anger for such a long time. For me i think this is the only oppurtunity to see them , to get close with them. While later on my friends which have been to the concert all came back to me and said they are so great. While they telling me, my anger getting increase and more sad that i'm not in the concert. Seriously this really bordering me untill now.

Past mean past, there is no turning point, life still need to goes on. By the way , in this moment this time i knew korean already. I went for korean language class for almost 1 year, not even understand i still can talk in it. I continue to be their super fans , everyday search their news, their photo , everything about them. They are my daily themor energy. See them from a young boy, childish look buy become a handsome , charming man is really proud for them. They really is a Asia legend in this century , not only famous in their own country Korea, but is trough out every corner of Asia. They even got recorded in Genuises Book of Record because of having the biggest fans club trough out Asia. This year they will having the 2nd Asia concert world tour again and no doubt Malaysia is also one of the country. This time no matter what happen , nothing can stop me by going to their concert.

Story until here i still can't believe that my dream comes true ~!

ok well .... just continue to see my story than you will get to know what had happened to me

December 14th is my brithday and is also NV's concert in Malaysia. When i knew this i totally out of my mind to think they having this concert for me. No way to be not happy right , idol's concert is having on your birth of date. But before that they will come to Malaysia to have a press conference for this concert. Press conference date is on 30th November , and they will be in Malaysia on 29th Nov. On 29th that day actually i plan to go airport to 'fecth' them (hoho) , but is kind of far for me to go KLIA , so i decided to not go. While 1 one my friend went , and she eventually become the direct telecast for me to know how is the situation in KLIA. She really happy to be there , cause she can see them with just a half hand distance , wow so near. Happy for her also, while the same day also my korean class day. So my friend excitingly tell me how NV are, how close she with them , how complicated situation in KLIA. Again i just can quietly listen to people said about NV. After the class , i driving around town and listen to their songs. The mind is thinking what are they doing in this time, in a forein country. And i decide to have my dinner in one of the 7-11 in town. while i eating my cup mee in a corner, out of suddent got 2 tall and wearing hat guys came in. At first i just don't border and my heart already full with my Hero. But while they walk near to me , i heard that they speaks in korean. I'm so suprise this kind of time this kind of place why got korean. So i left up my head and see, OMG is Micky and Donn. I totally stund at there and can't believe that i can see them at there. But the 2 of them having a situation over there, they wanted to buy shiver but don't know how to ask the cashier. In my heart thinking that is Micky really stay before in USA , won't be don't know "shiver" in english. While i stunning at there i also laughed out cause by thier conversation. And they also found out me laughing terribblely in a corner.

They look at each other and come towards me and asked :

Micky : What are u laughing ? You know how to speck korean ?

Me : Yup. (than all conversation is talk in korean)

Donn : So you heard what are we arguing just now ?

Me : If not what do you think i laugh at !?

(straight away 2 of them their face go blush)

Me : So do your need my help ?

Donn : yes of cause.

Me : ok

help them get the shiver and went out to them which waiting me outside the 7-11, one of my hand holding cup me one of my hand holding the shiver.

Me : nah ~ see is it ok

Micky : em ! thanks man .

Me : don't tell me this is your english level while you have been stayed in US for few years ?!

(they kind of suprise , but actually i holding myself from showing to excited in front of them)

Donn : you know us ?

Me : please ~ of cause! summore is super fans.

Micky : but you does not like a super fans

Me : are you hopping me to give you a great big hug when i see you ?

(hearing this Don laughing non stop there , while Micky face again blushing there)

Me : really happy can see your, can talk with your so naturally. Tonight i sure can't sleep

Micky : do you want to be more happy ?

Me : how ?

Micky : ................

*to be continue .......................................

writer

freind gave me an idea why don't i try write some story to be come a writer
haha ~ but i just don't know why she say send to YU CHUN
never mind is ok for that,well i used to write short story in chinese while i in secondary school
but all in rubbish bin already, threw all already, is very funny and not nice so i just threw it
can this work ??
i realise 1 more thing on myself
i just will seriously do something which i think that thing that really can be works well
sturbbon people mind is like that
what make people have so many money to waste to spend which i so wish i have
sigh ........ is ok back to my topic first
hmmm how people come out with their ambition ??
just curious about that , ask me i really don't have great ambition
just hope for worridless life which is hard to own or have it
really i use to be so happy go lucky
but now a days really hard to maintain the happy go lucky feeling
no working , doing nothing days really make me tend to think much
may be this cause my mind so stuck now
ah ~!!!!
again remember my friend all purposely call me and asked am i having a bf now ~??!!
no la man ~ i don't have it ~!!!
i'm so desperate , so wanted to have la
but i really don't own a bf now la
may be they wanted to know how am my bf looks like ba or who really is my bf
will they feel sorry to my bf , by having me this girl as his gf
cause the way they asked is sounds looking down on me
for me i really feel that
may be is i sensitive but i more believe in my sense
sound so sad and bad , but this kind of people is really exist
may be you lucky than me so you don't seem to have this kind of "friends"
again outlook is so important for a person impression , no matter is 1st, 2nd or what number is
this is what so important in this reality life
but can you really judge the person by just looking without knowing ?
for me impression is important but by knowing the person more important ba
almost whole day bloging only, i even no go search for TVXQ pictures or news
haha ~ really want to become writer ~!?
please don't tell me to dream on ~!!!

free + useless + lazy + a burden

now i am a free + lazy + useless + elders's burden girl
i really don't meant to become like that but i still becoming this creature
so relaxing now , i again sitting in starbucks bloging.
i just can't find a cheaper coffee shop that provide wifi
if you eventually know where are those nice coffee house hidding please tell me
saw a coffee shop near my aunty house which i wanted to try at there , but i don't know whether they providign wifi , so i just change my mind to starbucks .
previously i use to be at my friend's cafe shop play internet but unfortunately she closed up her shop
suddenly have a thought, what about i open a coffee shop myself ... ( dream on )
see my friend as an examples, it seems like not a good idea
sitting beside the window , after a heavy rain , now the sun is coming out.
why i like to blog, i just like to write my feel, my thinking, what i see to let people read (even know not much people visit , which i wish to have ) but as long as i'm free , i'm online , i will just come to blog
again lots of people ask what am i going to do ?
what am i doing ?
what i actually want to do ?
AGAIN i don't know what am i going to do ?
actually i'm still finding the thing i wanted to do ?
to be frank , i no more young enough to simply do what i want .
ya so what am i doing now ? ya i'm wasting my time now .
day by day past without doing ANYTHING
GOD ~ i just get more and more confusing about my future my carreer my mind my action
can my silver angel tell me what should i do ma ??
can my silver angel come out to help me out ma ??
i so need YOU ~!!!!

long distance relationship

is been such a long time i wanted to write this but i just forget
ok no i can write this lo
hmmm ........ do you believe in long distance relationship ??
again me this no experience girl thought
really think that the trust between 2 both is really important
no trust will just rull up everything
you simply think simply guess what am i doing and i also did this to you
don't you feel sad, feel tired, feel no use ?
what those guessing, thinking mostly 99% are not good things
so this will just make both of you quarrell , saying wrong things, thinking wrong way
why make till like this leh ?
extra seasoning for your life ?!
i trust long distance relationship can works on , but is it just work for lucky and erternity love couple ?
most of my friend will just don't looking good on long distance relationship
may be because their serounding cover by no good result examples
for me i also met 1 couple only that works on this
is really happy for them
even my surrounding also with high % of not good result on long distance relstionship
but for me the trustness between both is a important issue fot this, of cause also got others issues
now my sister is having this issue
her bf is a korean guy
actually compare to others korean guy her bf is consider a good korean guy
he no smokes, respects elders, sayang my sister, not too big man's thought
but sometimes will have tyhpical korean attitude , overall he is consider good
for the begining few months while the guy in korean, they seems looking good
but now a days, they seems to have quarrel everyday
sad for my sister , cannot said that she don't like him , everytime they quarrel she also cried
but people who saw my sister, knew my sister also think that she not this kind of easy cry person
even i also don't understand my sister which i think she build by complication cells ~ haha ^^
ok back to topic, everytime they quarrel also because the guy think that my sister betray him
what la man ~!
please la , ya i also don't uncerstand and don't know why that my sister got so many CHASER
but can't you trust your own gf ~?
do you think before my sister also scare also worried that you have others gf there ~?
summore there is crowded by so many pretty , cute girls which much more better than my sister
seriously what they quarrel till now i also just heard my sister keep on and on explaining that she have no betray him, never hear that my sister use untrusted ask him before
may be you will think that is my sister not like him , love him enough
please ~ this for me is just showing how you untrust your belove
ya sometimes you really need to do this, but not everytime man
is just will cause the frustration and hate feel for both
lately as a third party i never say anything i just think that sometimes they will need to advice or listerner
but please if you are 1 of the 3rd party, don't simply say anything that will activate them to do out something that have no turning point or spoilds them up
even you as an elder i also think that you should not too interrupt in it, sometimes will make it worst
i see my aunty and my mom keep on interrupt between both of their daugther relationship
last time i will tell how to do or what can be do or how should you do
but i already stop doing this , suddenly have a don't care thought and also what if i say is correct for me but is just will spoilds them up , i will have big responsibility that not i can have man ~
my mom asked why i no more joining their talk , for me is boring, not my business, i will have extra ordinary answer or say opposite oppinion ~ not say i so bad to them , is just this kind of matter not a 3rd party can say so than you do so.
in life manythings does not works as what you want or hope ~!!!!!!!!!!

again am i going to korea

again been ask are u going to korea
so wanted to say yes ~!
but i really dono
i can go ?
i should go ?
can i go ?
going for ?
need to go ?
why go ?

sien of all this question

long time man

saturday night ~~ i met with my hometown friends
that plus me total up is 3 persons
2 girls and 1 guy
talk what we are doing currently , how was the others friends that still have contact
but mostly i also listen only
reason : 2 of them currently working and studying in penang which i in kl
mostly what they talk is about penang this penang that
why they will end up talking ghost story that i most scare

but happy lo can meet back with them

do u think before ~~!?

do u think before that u will get famous 1 day ??
i always have this thought ~~
haha
i am serious la
who don have leh
but ho can really be true for me ma ??

again ~~ a hair cut

this is under light

this is under sun

dono how long till now again i go cut and dye my hair

but ho ~~~~~~~~~ i think i waste the dye hair money ~~~~

is like not much different for me ~~~~ even my friend said so ~~~~~~~~~

SIEN JOR ~~~~!!!!!!!!

why got so much different ah ~??!!!!!

hometown day

not so special day also la
just again back to my hometown penang ~
after my house 2nd chingming ~
just after four month after my working life i back to my hometown again lo
no special feel just got feel towards temtation food mood only ~
haha
really cant live without food ah ~
really when till the time come than there wil have road to me to walk ma ~!???
because my fren told me that don so worried about it lo ~!!!!
but i don really think so ~~~~~
really till now i still think about my CERT ~!!!!
how to get it leh ~~~~ wont be go buy right ~!!!?????
study back ??? ya but not the accounting thing again

what is your angel's colour?

in your heart what is the colour of an angel?
my DARLING said before in his heart an angel is black in colour
i really agree with him
for me this kind of ppl how bad also has the limit there
not like such ppl said how good is he/she, how PURE is he/she this kind of ppl is FAKE man ~!!!
in his/her heart angel is always white ~!!!!!
so so fake ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO WAY ~!!!!!!!!!
my fren said she may be is naturally lucifer's daughter
haha ~~~ so ngam i'm wacthing a drama 大唐双龙传 ~ is talk about secret kungfu ~ watever 1st
the drama is talk about the 2 heroin got EVIL power deep inside their heart and it depends on how they will use it
in my thinking and evil power is always in your heart and is inside everybody's heart .... everyone also have
is just depends on how u use or show it only
when ur TAHAN limit is there how angel are u also will become a devil ~
haha ~ casue i think i'm more showing my evil face now even most of ppl think i look so soft
i not scare to tell that don look down on my evil power o ~~
sometimes u need to show INDIRECTLY your evil power ~~
may be u wil think that i'm a back stabbing ppl ?
sometimes this kind of dirty hands need to be use on suitable ppl ~~~~~~ hoho
*ps: forget to tell my angel colour is GREY ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!