holiday 3 @ LAST DAY OF 2009

omg !
is already last day of 2009
is 31/12/2009
that this day will not come back

as usual tell what have been done by me, today
went to mid valley with 종현
go for lunch and movie - avatar
is a really a good movie BUT is too long @@
haha weird me
and i just know that avatar has use 15 YEARS to produced!!! @@@@@@

this is a 2009 post but i still writing now which is already 2010!
新年快乐
HAPPY NEW YEAR
새 행복 많이 바드세요
SELAMAT TAHUN BARU

watch 2009 KBS Drama Awards
with nat
and because korean is and hour faster than us so when they countdown the 2 of us also feel a bit...........something
haha
she stay at my house from last year till this year @@
and when the 12.00am is here
can see fireworks from my house
종현 was asking where to see fireworks
i think now in malaysia almost everywhere also can see in this time
i have enjoyed my day
how bout u???

holiday 2 @ 2nd last day of 2009

doing nothing at home for till 5.30pm

5.30pm nat came to my house and we out to ampang and met out korean fren - 황종현
we went to sing k, korean k
is really nice, he also feel 신기 that korean k in malaysia
haha but to us is really nice
after that we went to 딱갈비집
there's also our fren there - 창주연
eat until know her, haha
today her cousin bro is there and will in malaysia for like 2 months - 강주연
걍민 is so cute!
is really cute! hoho
i like so po at there keep on make fun..... haha
don't know why i today act like that
나타리, 종현, 주연, 주연 ------- 미안......

is really going to be end la 2009
26 hours left

my holiday 1 @ las 3rd day of 2009

korean wine i tried!
nice!

ok
today is my day 1 holiday
and also
the last 3rd day of 2009

unforgettable day

OMG!

omg! so wrong for me today

1) take a long time to get to cineleisure
2) at first while eating i already feel weird on my shoe then i found it is SPOILED. omg right, ok then i told my uncle that i need to go find new shoe then he say go ask the fruit stall aunty get some raffia string to tie my leg and shoe together. @@ ok then i at last decide in weird walk and go find a new shoe. then i reach i small stall and ask her whether got any fine shoe for me then she have nothing for me then i get some string from her tie for awhile that i can walk with shoe. mana tau just walk for a while then i met my uncle then we walk to shoe shop. and this time MY OTHER SHOE BROKE ALSO.............omg....... there's stairs tim. @@ but lucky not far away is padini concepts and i for sure vincci is inside so i headed there fast and at last i bare legs again and enter vincci. took me 10 minutes to get a pair of shoe and out the shop as fast as i can!

3) sleepy watching jay chou that treasure hunt. i really want to watch it cause i wanted to know how will chinese present this kind of movie and how was actually is in chines version of tomb raider. ok, how i like jay chou also i think this movie 'not nice'. U________U
4) big argue with my sis

at last i bought i bottle of korean wine and drink with my cousin sis in my house...........
is actually i wanted to try it for so long and this is the best chance and tome to have it!

I WILL NOT STEP INTO THE CURVE LIKE FOR 10 YEARS from today onwards!

another family gathering

seems my 'uncle' came back from aus
have non stop meeting each FAMILY
haha
today is LUI CHA day in my house, a traditional hakka food
besides that also have 猪脚醋 (pork leg vinegar) & BOBO CHA CHA
food festa!

cause my uncle like this food but he cant easily get it from aus...
1 year come back to malaysia once
so everybody pamper him....... include me
haha
cause he is really a good uncle...... he sayang us also.....
and every year he come back he sure find me and buy me big meals
haha

FOOD FESTA 만새!!!!!!!

Happy Winter Solstice Festival / 冬至快乐

in my room with 3 laddies...
they talking about GOSSIP!
i don want to hear it la...
but no place for them...
@.@

many people in my house
my big uncle's family (4pax)
my cousin uncle (1pax)
my grandpa & grandma
my whole family
TOTAL: 11pax
O.O

is a day to eat TONG YUN and is also means grow up few year
@.@
cause depends on how many tong yun u eat!
BWAHAHAHAHAHA
scary leh.....
haha
is actually u eat the tong yun then means u grow up 1 year
just 1 year
haha
that's chinese believe

this day is actually a big day for chinese
is means winter is here
also near to a brand new year and also chinese new year is around the corner
is a day that family members get the chance to gather together
eat together, chat together!
and there's an event for this too
can do TONG YUN together!

21st dec - holiday for me

seens i start work i have no take a day of leave
but this time i took 2 days straight for 2 weeks
it may also because of 'something' that make me no feel no mood to be there
but i also have to do my work at house even is holiday
but is ok.... cause this is a WANT for me
wanted to out to times square to get something
but is like a waste if i get that
so i'm now here continue my blog and my work and not in times square
oh that is a purpose for tomorrow's holiday
cause JAY CHOU is in pavillion tomorrow!!!
haha
and now is year end, have to clear my leaves also
anyway.......................HOLIDAY!

왜 나한데 그래요!

나 좋아하면 왜 나 한데 그래!
이런것 좋아냐
난 정말 힘들어
난 알아 는 것 .. 너또 힘들어
근데 왜 .. 난 친자 이해 못해!!!!!!!!!
난 좋아하는 것 받을수없어?
그럼 나 좋아하지마!
아 .............
진짜 미친께다!
나도 너 피했어!

MUST

ok now i'm so hangat hangat to aboard korea for my korean language study
this is a must for me
i had already stuck for this about 3 years
that make me cant move anymore further
if i'm not doing that i have no more future meaning
that really MEANT for me!!

my 24th birthday

today is my birthday
and also onew's birthday
and left not even 1 hour going to be others birthday - xiah junsu (TVXQ)

lastly this day is here
really thanks to all my friends and counsin and my sis that wishes me
hope your happy and healthy always!

today i got 3 cakes
1st my colleagues - that i especially ask for HAHA
2nd from chili's that gave to birthday girl
3rd surprise from my sis, cousin sis and ah kok(sis bf)
really thanks!!!

thanks to nat also

nat, i really like that and really touch
thank you so much

this is somethings that i bought for myself as present
HOHO ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND ONEW!!!!!
wish us happy always, healthy always
and hope i can get bf, go korea!
haha
today is really my day!!!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA!

korea day

nice and fun saturday
took a reast for this saturday
went to sing korean k
eat korean food
meet korean fren
everything is in korea nor korean

as u have been reading for my blog u will know that i am so wanted to be in korea
till know i am too
already have been almost 3 years for my this mission
i really wanted it to be happen in year 2010

my mom alasan was
"there living is not as easy as u think, not as fun as u think, not good as u think"
"study your korean for?"
"go there for?"
"u think u really can handle everything by yourself?"

i think i have to deep talk with her...............
is in really SERIOUS TALK

countdown

countdown-ing mine and onew birthday
haha
point of start up a new life!
mission for myself
> don't be so stupid anymore, when i need to be smart
> live happily and appreciate everything
> slim down
> do what i like and what i wish, depends on..
> don't let myself stuck in suffer situation
> let myself out of trouble, less down
> let every day of my life lively

big problem

this time i really get myself into big problem le
my boss came to me and talk SO MANY things to me
- not aggressive enough
- not co-operate enough
- self fish
and something else

i ask myself, am i?!

after that i force myself doing every thing that my boss like
a hard time but i know if i'm not doing that i'll let myself more in suffer situation
i have no choice

i'm totally lost of myself...
dono what am i doing, dono what am i thinking
i cant tell this to anyone, but my blog
i dono how to tell

fren, this days i think lots of u
dono why
just when i stuck i'll just think of u
may be u are the 1 who can really understand my current situation
how should i do?
will u protect me?
will u look on me?
i really hope the thing, the decision i make is correct
today we talk about u again, although not much people dare to talk
but still..
remember back those day we hang out together
haha
u know what, i really scare i'll become the 2 girls we hate and dislike
i really scare
i promise u i'll not become that!
u have to protect me o..

i'm so sick now..
night eveyone

2nd edition

my 2nd edition of laptop is here now
at first the purpose of going pc fair is for camera
but when till fujitsu booth..
the price attracted me so much and i GOT it!!!!
for RM2048

have to temporary say goodbye with camera le.........

2nd edition is because this is my second fujitsu laptop

heartbreak

LACK OF FRENS - that's me
need lots lots of fren
i really can say that if i confirm u as my fren that u will be treated like a king/queen
but if u are not in the list of my fren, i'm sorry to say, i not consider u as fren

when i was young eventhough till now, if fren need my helps no matter how i also will do it for u
except i really don wan and cant
how my mom scold me stupid i also help without asking repayment

is that the way i treat fren let your feel sesak nafas, stress, hate
is that the way i treat fren WRONG

ya, i really look serious on this
cause this thing like keep on happen on me

heartbreak because of fren
get scold because of fren
lose because of fren
lost because of fren

my mom always say that i look on fren more than family
waht also fren go first
ya i am..
cause i really scare to lost them

somebody said : living is for own and not for others
but to me, fren are part of my life too

am i meaningless to the person i call fren

i felt that i am....
fren let me felt that..
i really feel that i am not to be appreciate..

sunday working

i'm so tired for today...
work at times square today...
yes is sunday working...!
and also for the next sunday!
and i'm the mc for today's event
so shit!!!!
i just can give my self 3o over 100 marks...
sien....
i really wanted to do it well...
but is just....
haih....

1 1/2 hour ago...

open page for writing something on blog.. but now is already 1 1/2 hour ago...
still got nothing can be write
i post photo in facebook and not here....
so i have to post some on here too....
but give me some time....

touch ... hard way

i'm touch read comment that my fren left for me...
i really touch and thanks you guys
cause your are beside me

i actually felt lonely...
cause i can only tell and show my actual feeling at here

may be i think more on my foot..... but did i....
i think i have a narrow thinking

but i really hate the current now...
again....
where am the LAST TIME me.....

why i keep on get stuck by this kind of thing!!!
why i cant get through it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got face it eh!!!!!!!!!

ok according to previous thing, i really cant talk with my parents, i don dare.....
ya most probably the same thing will happen again...

this time got new thing...
i think i did it wrong...
the exact incident i really dont know how to express
but this time i really think i wrong and cause my fren in ...... very hard way
feel sorry and bad for her
how should i help her....
.......................

i really have to live back with optimist thinking, feel!!!!!!!
if not i'll get mad so soon......

i cannot DOWN anymore.....
my name is dAwn not dOwn!!!

HHAHAHAHAHA......

outstation

my frist time of outstation
JOHOR
went yesterday and back by today

i really refuse to go
1) far destination-4 hours
2) unfamiliar place-never been before seens i primary
3) awkward
4) of cause need to social

even now i also refuse
but is quite easy task
u just have to be there to work for 3 HOURS
yup that's today morning 8.30am to 12.00pm
that's all
just take it as an experience

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next topic

i'm still in the NEGATIVE MOOD
and still thinking what's wrong with me and what am i doing
am i doing it right or wrong?
i keep telling people that
not everything can be judge for right or wrong
but till myself, i'm stuck here

and my feeling are so kelam kabut this few days
cant control my mind and my heart
again, i'm i right or wrong

what la!
i just confusing myself

i really have to cheer up myself

andi think that's 1 more person confusing me and frastrating me......
but i dono just i ask
or how should i deal with

me ain't me

why the eldest 1 always have to let younger first
why wrong always go to eldest first

sometimes i really think why have to be me - the eldest
most of the time i'm happy with it, but not this moment
i'm the eldest daughter but i ain't like

ya i'm naive, childish, not 24 years old acting, immatured.....
why i have to be act matured!
why i have to stand for so many thing
why i have so many things to think

i hate to think
i use to forget
i already not using my 'forgetful' for so long

i use to be POSITIVE girl
but now why i become negative girl
i loss

same thing happened again, i always and again keep quiet, no argue no quarel
but when/if the same thing happened on my sis there, i'll get scold again
why i just don go argue with her right now~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why i just telling and yelling at here~!!!!!!!!
i know if i go i'll be the trouble maker again.....
both will be black face, my dad will just ask me let the sis
what am i?!
why always this kind of thing happened i am the 1 who say sorry first!
why i have to talk to her first!
eventhough till now i no regret before!
cause i knew that if i'm not doing this both of us will just keep no talking
and i also knew that my sis will not talk with me 1st!!!!
undestand ah?!
i no wrong but why make me feel i'm wrong!
just because i'm the only sis and the eldest?

i really dono how....
i really tired with all this
i think i am the problem
i have no more idea what can i do

how to become back the
real positive me
ain't pretend positive me

electronic

i think i'm not good relation with electronics

those electronics goods with me will have no long life and will spoiled without knowing

dvd player wont stay long
car cd player ate 1 of my disc for almost 2 years
my sim card also sot sot dei
laptop old and slow than turtle

i think my phone also soon...

feel kesian for my phone.. TT.TT

슬퍼죠

난다른 사람한데 뭔대?

사실은

난 아무 것 도 아니..........

좀 슬퍼......

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why suddenly so many people know korean!!!!
i no more feel is save ah~!!!!

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난 친구 한데 ...... 있어?

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i just don know what is my filling now
i just can say i don want care anything anymore
i trying not to care.....

i have to let go many thing
if i still holing it i'll get more suffer.......
just let go ba

this few days i keep on thinking to go another place to go my new life
i really wanted to do that
just timing and money

ya ...i'm running away...........

i want to runaway.....

random blog

just for the sick of writing something
everytime also like that
got lots of idea what i should write
but when the time i sitting in front of computer then my brain go blank
shit

> saw my fren facebook, i want to go KOREA
> i want buy LAPTOP
> i want buy DXL

looking on online booking now-AIR ASIA
buying ticket!
to.........KUCHING~!

but~~~~~
i cant PAY
i don knot why....
so sien~~~~
want pay also cant......

"i"

i think u 'may' have got betray by someone u trust much right?
i have this experience for twiece
i have no idea why

it just happened like that
it just happened without any notice
it just happened in 1 slip

i have a bad behaviour
if the person or that thing i don't like and it means i will NEVER like it
if i like that's ok

i think is a sturbon behaviour
i noticed i had this behaviour when i came out from howmtown, that's mean 7 years ago
i just cant really turn back, or i have to work hard on it
i'll try my best

i have strong feeling to go on board
i'm in 'going away' intension

just post

going to end for my 4 days holiday lo
fast
but if tomorrow still holiday, can see me with spider web
nothing to do for me
-.-''''
mostly what i had done is sleep

oh ya
yesterday quite fun
cause met with my secondaries bro
haha
he make us laugh so much even though he so in depress on something
really thanks for his appearance
today he went FRIM and also came to temple and meet us up
he lonely we here also happy for him to company

why
no matter which countries male/female bands also will have seperate thingin
is a sad thing for fans you know
fans so support the artist as a group,out of suddent then seperate already, what reponses u actually expect from fans
ya i know the seperate thingin not your want or something cause it
but why this trend is happened in most of the bands
among 10 groups there will be 9 groups are seperate at the end
is there a curse in???!!!!!
just will feel sooooo sad when the group of artist u like so much suddently said they have to seperate!!!!
fans like is because your're in a group!!!
and of cause there must be at least 1 of the member u will dislike him/she
but still will like him/she in the group!!!!
OH
what ever

serching for new korean songs
but it seem nothing for me
will just see

done

holiday

yesterday i had went to klcc-kinokuniya
bought a novel

today went to Tean Hou Gong-Tean Hou Temple
pray and turn turn luck
of cause tuen bad luck to GOOD luck

went to change hair style-cut hair
a new style new look
always cut layer, now i change to same level hair cut

at least done something i want in this holiday

GOODY!!!!!

multithought

woke up!!

sleep with movie on SOUND ON

blogging with tv on SOUND ON

eat with drama on SOUND ON

clean house with SOUND ON

cooking with SOUND ON

bath with SOUND ON

i just cant believe if the world without sound @@
ok
home alone dawn
there's no one except me
feel so lonely
my house is 24 hours with sound when i'm in
there's too scary without any sound that can comfort me
ya , i have no guts
TT.TT
i can go out by myself but today i just dont feel to do so
kl now is the best time to go out
less car less people
cause MOST have balik kampung
why i;m not in kampung
actually i want too
but i just i feel sien when the time to drive back and come back with those jam
i hate jam
that's why i dont like to eat jam
HAHA not funny
ya is traffic jam
in kl already always need to jam here jam there
balik kampung also need, that frastrate me

i actually plan to go for 1 day trip

that's sound nice right!

genting, bukit tinggi, melacca

but

just can only be THINK

dont know why

just found that my house tv got usb port
so i try to load my pendrive/external
it really works
BUT just for some types of video
it really can be work!!!
i'm watching it now
^^

my mom was calling me day by day

asking me how am i in house

am i out

have i eat

i know she worried me

but i just hard to express myself to her

is really hard

or can be said i dont know how

feel sien of my self

felt so sorry to her

keep on asking myself

why am i still in house!!!

i really 플상 ah!!!!!

diet thinking was in my head for so long long time

this few days i have more strong thinking on it

and i think i got work A BIT on it

just A BIT

i already clean house, room, laundry

what else i can do??!!

blog?

facebook?

another post

this is the 3rd post from morning till now
i have nothing to do at all
feel to go bookstall walk walk but
feel to eat but
feel this feel that
how come i got so many feel

do you have this feel too?

i think i will get to bed so soon
feel dizzy lazy cozzy

again FEEL

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something inside my brain

things i want
- those 'pro' camera
- any story books EXCEPT ghost or terror
- dvd player
- keyboard
- new laptop
- go korea study or anything

which 1 can i go first?
which 1 can i get first?

what i can get first?

i'm so boring in this holidays
so wanted wanted to go out
but dont know where to go and no one can go with
why i so kesian
TT.TT

long vacation @@

good morning
is so early for a sunday
and i ate dim sum for breakfast summore
so wanted to go somewhere on this 3 days holidays
but........
like no one can go OR want to go
feel so sien
I NEED TO GO OUT!!!!


SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

humanimal

everytime i feel to write something on my blog, but my brain just blank and stuck, nothing can let me write. but when i close my blog and turn off my comp, there's so many thing in my head to let me write. sigh.. it was such a long time i no update in my blog, my facebook, or korean show.. 1 word, LAZY. just call sam to confirm that is xinky forum been shutdown, the answer is YES. totally sien! just can describe with sien. no forum, no download, no download, no entertainer, no entertainer, no life, no life.... especially this is the only thing i can connect with korea, anything about korea, the country, the language, the cultural. suddenly feel so boring in my life without dramas or programme show to download. i'm so outdated! that's what i feel and what i been told! no heard feeling, just i am. TT.TT

looking around my room, feel good and bad. good is i'm alone using, bad is i don't know what to do except on the computer. at last i also on my computer and i'm here now. and i trying a online tv, don't is that work, i hope it can be work, if not....SIEN

oh ho, my newest slogan is SHEK SI AH(eat shit), haha! this time really shek si ah! cant work o.... ok, just forget about it.... wacthing JaeJung's mom in audition on a korea show programme-super star k, frankly said, same as american idols. ok by the way, i look at the last they got put mom and son picture together, thye got similarity, of cause, that's his give birth mom..

i really outdate la, cause, i dont know that ss501 is in malaysia! i really dont know.. but i know already also cant do anything but just.. HYUN JUNG ya....... haha

is already midnight 12.31am, another new day, and i still blogging. i'm not holiday, still need to work later, but i just don want to stop. my sis was so suprise that i havent sleep yet. me, my ownself also suprise. haha. look at my hard disk, i have nothing to watch!!?? so sad!!!??

have to .. close .. lo ..

ampang look out point@little genting

ah fah & ah dawn

ah dawn & kean seng & ah fah

1st & 2nd time i follow my friend, i totally don't know the way to go

3rd time i just simply drove with 1 of my friend to look out point(little genting) i already knew that, this place are very near from my house

i went for the 4th time

this time i feel damn near, is super near from my house

is much more near than i previous time went

now up there got nice restaurent

or i should say a nice place to hang out and yum cha

3 1/2 hours later

>> at last i got to change my blog layouts! not help my by sis. is just i at last figure it out how it works with little helps from my cousin sis ^^

>> got a white colour headphones. want it for such a long time. my sis help me get it with 20 bucks. using it now. not bad ^^

>> my sis just back from low yat. bangs people car. of cause need to pay lo. her car also kena. bang because of black spot. have to be really careful o. no matter driving or walking or anything! TT.TT

again & again

yo yo
again long long time have not update my blog
again i using my own 7 years old comp to write blog
again to old to run facebook

alone
i getting too use to be having own room
i become stinge for my room
just couldn't share my room
is too bad la me

food
looking for foods around
especially those intro at tv's programme

badminton
so wanted to play this few weeks
and i actually went for it
hope for can going often

taman kimia @ crstal garden
why no one know this???
was tought when in secondarr school
i raelly wanted this to be work
so wanted!

coffee
O.O
getting interested on the process of coffee, coffee shops, art coffee...etc
everything on coffee

blogskin
i wanted to change it for so damn freaking long
but my sis just dont want to help me
feel damn shit

my pink ice-cream

my pink ice-cream!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

is in korean!

even for sms!

ok this is my ice-cream

bought it last saturday

i knew this phone, saw before

but i don't know that it can be in korean

and i also don't know that it is so nice

ok, i have no thought before i'll get a LG phone

but after i got this i have no regrad at all

i love it!

ok the biggest point i get this is because it can be in KOREAN LANGUAGE

:)p

BUT i really no regrad

and i actually like flip phone

-

i'm looking for phone

but is like sony ericsson or iphone

when nat told me on friday and i so wanted to buy it on friday

haha

but at last i hold till the next day

and i walk around low yat and sg wang

got lots seller treat me as 'water fish'

lucky my sis, cousin sis went with me

at last i bought it with RM700 with 2 gb memory card

super ^^

chai's wedding photo

long-long

head-head

eat-eat

ice cream girls

the cousins
girl with blue sleve less
&
the 2 guys

my cousin from canada

all the cousin

+

new bird

the cousins

chai's wedding party

ok is time to tell what is wedding
from the moment i step in to my grandmom's house, non stop entertaint the cousins & relatives

thrusday night i reached home, take my dinner and durian - kind of relax at that time

friday-the day before wedding dinner (a big day)
woke up at 11pm start work as a gully
arrange and open the tables and chairs
is around 40 of tables and chairs
huge cook for lunch and dinner
lunch was lui cha...hakka traditional food
at that time also a lots of people come over and eat
because lots of them are helper, they help out a lots
and from that time on, is like so suffering
whether is so hot, the wind a re hot wind, cause people tastless
i felt that at that time, because i like lui cha so much but i cant eat much at that time
for our traditional, before the dinner night we will have a fried meehoon night at the groom' house
we invite the same people as they were also the dinner guest, but the different is this fried meehoon night's guest usually were relatives or friends who stay nearby, who can come easily
and because our family business is a knownable sundries shop in whole town
so is like invited the whole town people
the whole back road of 8 houses was taken by us to put tables, chairs and summore got karaoke stage
in this night there were around 400+ people went....
CROWDED
my mom and my sis non stop filling the orange juices for them, me and my the other 2 sisters walking around, give out ice-creams and beers
luckily our house is a sundries shop
so is like for beers, juices, soft drink, tissues, etc...much more easy to get...just take, actually
oh~bride's families was there also, they're from melacca, and eventually the bride has a twins
most of the relatives don't know is like so confuse
haha

saturday - dinner (huge)
morning session we have to go to the bride's house to bring the bride to come over
woke up 7am , set up, prepare.......
hon hon hon~~~~ till the bride house
of cause the groom and best friends have to be played and make fun first before to get the bride from the bride's sisters hand
drink cuka, eat ginger, eat bread with dry chilli....OMG.....
summore have to sing love song, say 'i love u'
feel so awkward for me to see my cousin bro saying those word....
of cause cant lease of ang pao.....
and got 1 lady, dai kum je
she helps a lots on those wedding rules, and she really good in talking
summore i felt funny was, she felt annoyed by the games that set by the bride's sisters
haha
there's a rule, because i'm in the groom side, so when the bride get up to car or steps in the house, i also cant see.... is really bad to see...
so when we all girls turn back and not looking at, i felt bad.... is liek so rude... but no choice
so of cause the coming event was drink tea... jum cha
there's a lots of relatives need to jum cha
and wait for almost an hour just reach us, which non-married cousins to take ang pao
haha
we actually have to jum cha to him, luckily no need..... i cant imagine for me to jum cha to him
he just elder than me 4 months!
after all this jum cha, is lunch time
but this time is the most less people
but still gor 50 over people
after lunch i straight got to take nap.... is damn tired
around 4.30pm - time to prepare for the huge event
in invitation card we wroten that 7.00pm sharp
but there were guest that reached by 5.00pm...
wow early
we also like havent prepare well then have to rush to dinner place
guests were like over 700 people, so cant have it in a restaurent
so we have it at a big temple, ask the restaurent to cook it there
i drove my grandparents(mom's side) and her friends go over to the temple, and go back to fecth my cousins
start moving around, seeing around, talk with relatives, knowing them and let them know me
dinner starts when the new bird arrived, but because we have it in temple, so the new bird have to go pray first and then lead by my grandparents, the both parents, enter the dinner place
dinner half way, the new birds and both familes members have to go on stage to geng jao
is was really fun, and was the funniest part
cause my cousins back from canada feel fresh for all this, so we ask him to shout for the 3rd time of YUM SING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
he so blur, once get the mic and start shout.....shout before the mc say shout
hahahahahahahhahahahahahaha
after that... highlight,,, drink alcohol non stop
my dad cant drink alcohol, so i drink on behalf on him, to social the relatives
and some friends like drink alcohol as like drink water...
my cousin sister been beat down...............drink till vomit and saw her so suffering...
lucky i'm still ok
ends well and eat well
back to home, entertaint some friends then bath then sleep
THE END ... for me
but a brand new life for the new bird

memories, gethering, brand new experience of hosting a wedding, socialing
this is what i feel i get

i'm actually most happy to meet with my cousin sis and bro who stay far away in canada
but there's 1 more cousin sis counldn't come back... that's too bad......

tired

omg super tired
eventhough i'm not the groom or the bride
after seeing the whole process, a bit affraid of marrying
that's so many rules, so many things to be done
is totally more than i expect
i'm just the person seeing i also feel tired, don't talk about how the new birds think.....
1 word
TIRED
and i just woke up from a nap
more tired, later still got last show to go.... WEDDING DINNER
the worst part
imagine run all over the dinner place with high heels, fancy dress, make up, styled hair......
TIRED....
but also happy for the new birds.....
CONGRATE~!

own room-own house

at last ~!
i moved~!
omg!
that's feel so damn good that having own room,own house~!
damn good!
but now i'm damn hot~!
back to kampar cause my cousin bro isgetting married like by tomolo....wedding dinner
so have to help out a lots
but as my own style that i won't work much
hahaha
ok...i have to go back and serve.................400+ peoples here to serve now
tomolo will be 700+ peoples
@_____@

coldzy ___________________ cacat

i think when your read my blog will feel weird for my previous post
haha
coldzy~~
just think of no place to write

just now went buy durian!
yeah!
so wanted to buy it for so long already
but is jusco 1
this time this 1 is selling at roadside 1
so i decided to buy!
but the thing is i alone like cant buy o
so i ask my fren, haha
they also wanted to buy!
so we buy 3 for RM10
is actually a lots o
is selling by a malay uncle so naturally talk with malay
but the way i ask is terrible! so funny, till that uncle also dont know what i ask
haha
my cacat malay
TT_________TT

the only person i can tell

hk
got lots of thing to tell u
u are the only 1 i can tell of
kind of miss u but.... i know have to let go
today saw the picture we took at lee rubber....
and this week the class i went was teached by u before 1, all asking for u
i just can tell them that u went oversea
and i also went to see andy, he still in icu, i cant recognise him, i keep on ask cc is that really him
i see him, i feel he very sen fu , feel bad see him like that
ah~!
and your fren ah!
he again like that lo, said what going to oversea but let cf saw him lo
and summore he himself go say hi with cf
summore the girl ah.... cannot tahan her ah~!
really cant ah
and now got 1 more girl i cannot tahan too
fake! that's how i feel on her
today the school i went ask about andy, because is andy's school
headmisstress keep on ask me, i feel like crying at that time
it let me think of u and jessie
today i went there is because have to bring the new part timer
summore at that time i still have to repeat again what had happened
that day jt again have to go subang that school i really worried for her
many ppl asking what had actually happened that day, i really dont know and also dont want know
yesterday was your day
i got called km, we got talked and aslo talked about u
still remember u said that we 3 are 三剑客
haha
and camp that time
the game u played with those kids 1
boss ask us to play also, we played too
the game used your name to name it
ask by boss
at that time , i cant feel anything
i'm in numb
but i still handle it quite well, i think
but can see also the others feel weird why i name it with you name
then later on i got tell was ordered by boss
is not so normal in office................................

finding something to do

i already stuck in front of computer from noon 12 something till now
facebook blogging facebook blogging
repeat on the few same song
again & again
haha
2PM~!

no mood to go out
no mood to move around
no mood for everything
and nothing much to do
but if can
there is few things i want to do

• swimming
• cut hair
• watch transformers 2
• cooking
• baking
• stay in my teritory which is my house and not like now in others house
• travel around

updates

that's been a long long time i did not update my blog
here i am now
thats a lots of thing happened
related or not also have
extremely sad extremely bad extremely happy extremely shock
basically all the expression or the feeling you can think of
which everything comes to me

bad

2 of my colleagues died in an accident (a girl & a guy) and 1 injured badly now hospitalizing(guy)guy going to 19yrs old in june and girl still lovely marry bird with her husband and just delivered a baby 14 months ago
suddently i had lost 2 friends, no idea how would this happened
is that really real, i asked when i recieve this news
at that moment i know, i can't stop myself shivering
how can i accept that in the morning both of them still playing, talking, teasing me
i just can't stop myself crying
i went to UM hospital which the 2 of them were send to there
inside there both families crying sadly there, i don't dare to stay near with them, i know i can't hold myself crying too if i stay near with them
my others colleagues were there, i asked about the accident and try to calm them down
cause they are the first reached the accident place
and also find out the other injured badly colleague was send to sg. buloh hospital then i went to there too
this friend got injured on head, lung and usus
he just awake on thursday , all of us were glad of that
but of cause problem are coming after you, is he knew that the other 2 friends were already........
is that he can fuly recover well? remember what had happened?
and this was happened a week ago
tough, suffering, mindless week
many of my perspective and thinking change, not extremely change, and not changing to negative way
just look more broad more cin cai on most of the thing
nothing can really chill me up
so no mood~~
is letting go now
but i just hate that 1 of my friend keep on putting her sad mood on me
pls leave me alone!

good

good news was, my chai family the only grandson which is elder than me 4 months will be getting marry on july!!!!!!

my family members all start busy on so many things, cause is just left 1 more month

till now i still feel this is a brand new news for me

haha

no think of he will be marry in like 1 month time

no matter how

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

next, really have to congrate to myself

I SCORED 92 FOR MY KOREAN LANGUAGE EXAM~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YA HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

hahhaahahhahahahha

really happy for this

no think of i can score more than 90

hahhhahahahhaha

not bad not bad~~~ ^^

1 year

2008 April i work as teacher
2009 April i also going to start work as a teacher

is that what i really want to do?
is this job suit me?
can i handle it?
will i have to hard to work long for this?

lots of questions in my head ...
typical Sagittarius, Oxen

두려워하는 나
걱정하는 나

april 15th

i'll be start working at this day
and i'll be working as a teacher again that teach chinese school students about science and robotics
found this job in newspaper
i'll be no more time for blogging, internet, entertainment shows, korean, lepak, ETC
i just feel tired and stress
haven't start i already can feel all those negative force come to me
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

mission - driver

ah~~~
again back to my original hometown - Malim Navar (near Kampar)
a small, cody, lots of old folks, delicious foods, all stle stalls, all style foods ... etc
this time back got 1 mission - driver
most of my cousin sis will go clim hill for CHING MING/SHAO MU
and this is a very suffering and tiring work
so they will need a driver to drive them back to kl by tommorrow
so i'm the selected 1

to be or not to be

-human tend to use their own way of thinking to think others people words
-human tend to twist others people meaning
-human tend to thinking in another way round
-human tend to think naively
-human tend to has positive and negative thinking
-human tend to blame others
-human tend to play cheet
-human tend to look down ownself to get others attention
-human tend to look down others which they think they're proud of themselves
-human tend to raise up ownself and look down on others
-human tend to ignore what they don't want to face or don't want to deal with
-human tend to be rude to others they don't like or hate
-human tend to be frustrating
-human tend to be angry
-human tend to be moody
-human tend to be easily satisfied or hardly satisfied
-human tend to scold or been scold by others
-human tend to be aggressive or passive
-human tend to flirt
-human tend to have good looking but with bad personality
-human tend to have bad looking but with good personality
-human tend to have lots faces while socialise with different kind of people
-human tend to fall in love easily
-human tend to forgetfull
-human tend to think a lots
-human tend to guess
-human tend to judge by looks
-human tend to choose
-human ......


that's what i found on people surround me
person that i know and i don't know
and some of the statement also applies to me
if you think you are the perfect 1
can you intro youself to me?

@ clamp @

just went to see my house renovation, and check for the wyering those
there is your own parking lot for each lot of resident
so i went to my parking lot and saw my place is been park by a bmw (is new car tim)
so i went to the management, cause i need to park my car, and i can't park other's people parking lot right
and i told the management girl, till the end have to clamp that bmw......... HAHAHHAHAHAHA
first time i'm doing this
even i watch the security clamp that bmw
@@
poor bmw
but after i doing that, i scare i'll get revenge by that car later on .... which he/she find out is ME~!
and that's a problem that this bmw's owner had his/her own parking lot @@

난 누구지?

항상 이곳 저곳 잘 하고 싶어는데 결국이 다 망했다

나 지금 뭐하는고니?

패배자!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the WATCHMAN

OMG
this is a SUPER STUPID MOVIE~!
really terrible, but is in the meaning of NONSENCE movie
is my first movie which i really hope that END FAST & QUICK , can get out from that movie FAST
really like shit ah this movie
the poster CHEAT me!
at first i don have this idea of movie at all and my cousin bro keep on persuite me to wacth this
without any choices then we chose that
bloddy shit really a shit movie
i've never so suffer like this before
the show not only not nice, summore meaningless and till the end don't know what is that talking about!
super HATE ah!

hatecan'teatenpig

back from hometown for few days already
went for korean class from monday to wednesday and at last we had completes the basic level
now we go to intermediate level
is kind of scray for me, i will saty back at the same level again is because in intemediate level lis so much different
is much more harder
but now i have to challenge it!
have to really work much more harder lo
this time i taking this korean language exam
will be held on 19th of April
already start polish my korean
getting scare~~~~
is exactly 2 months from today
talk about this
that day i went to UKM (exam will be held at there) to pass up the apllication form for the exam
reach the language center there, the person incharge was not there
so we of casue have to find someone to help us out, the stupid people this person said not i incharge that person said don't know, push here push there
and called us to wait for the person incharge for 3 hours plus!
WHAT THE HELL~!
this thing can be done by receptionist and the receptionist hide from us, don't wan deal with us
bloody shit
at last ms.gloria (my korean language teacher) called a lecture which teaching this korean language in UKM
lucky with his help and get to called the stupid receptionist to deal our forms
i heard from ms.gloria that last time she went with another student they had wait at there for 4 hours @_@
i consider lucky
cause i used less than 1 hour to deal it @_@

ox year

ox year is not good for oxen
is true, that's me
the first day of ox i already carelessly knocked my head
and the place i knocked is so impossible to knocked , a table that is not till my knee, and fridge
feel so black and 邪
really in my 24 years life this is the first time i knocked my head so stupidly
strong 'feel' that i need to cross lots of stone, sand,rocks,pieces of glass to finish 1 mission
so many things blocking
i feel tired ..... omg just the 16th days of new year i so fast feel tired already
how am i going to survive
i really scare of that,sick of that........
some more i'm a super superstitious oxen and really sensitive on this kind of thing
cham la this time ma
really don have good feeling on my this year luck
cham la me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

piano

piano was a old story for me
but this time i back to hometown the things i touch most, play most, concentrate most was PIANO
play back my last time song, surprisingly i still can play it
and i also learn a new song from my sis that i last time so wanted to learn
Souvenir D'enfance
i think for most of you when heard this song will know what song is that
my mom just said my hand old already, is hard for my hand to play already
so sad~~~~~~ T.T
but is fun to play back
now just feel regret that i young that time no learn it well
human ah~~~~~~~~

in 7th years

already left secondary school for 7th years
just went met my secondary close friends
we talk for really long time
at first i thought we will feel awkward to each other
but not
we met then we non stop talking like last time
cause in between those years we are not close at all and not talk much and i don't feel to talk with him (there must be a cause @@)
even feel days before i met him we also no talk like this
really no think of we still can talk back so fun
our talking like no ending
we met 9.00pm till just now 2.00pm
really talk for long time
and of cause not just the 2 of us only
cause i will not really want to just meet up with him with only the 2 of us
still got 1 more girl
i quite close with her too
she i really first time met her back after we graduate from secondary school
she now in singapore which my place here lots of people went there
really happy to met lots of friend back here
and most of them are unexpected met

what call CNY

back to penang
yesterday was my dad's birthday
so planed to go Shelaiton 喜来登 have dinner
my mom wish to go there for such a longt ime
her friend told her about and is a expensive restaurant
is really expensive
can compete with kl's restaurant
so we reached there, the captain told us was fully book, so no choice have to leave
but later on my mom think of book for today, so tonight can go there for dinner
but at last we cancel this plan
because now is CNY time
they just offer fix set dishes plan for customer
and those set dishes all are abalone, shark fins, sea cucumber dishes
please .... not i sombong
is i ate from cny day 1 till now FOR SEA CUCUMBER
cause my 婆婆，外婆，even my mom also got cook this
and is not cheap to eat at outside restaurant
my 公公 got sell sea cucumber, abalone
so know the price, and if really want eat, we can cook it ourself
our purpose to eat at the restaurant is beijing roast duck
is known for that, but now just can wait after CNY just got to eat

CNY 2nd day

my 外公's house

long no ride bicycle already
a bit scary at 1st
but when get use to it is so fun!

hormat!

my 外婆's 宝贝 orchids

she cute right
she really cute from small till now
her eyelashes really long

super naughty ivan
annoying ivan

back street of house
slaughtering chicken

prepare well to go get ang pao

superwoman

superwoman's band

guitar battle

WOW WOW
sexy? pretty?

fight for new year!

robot? teddy bear?

2nd day
early morning again 12.00am on 27.01.09
we this time pray for new year
welcome new year
this time we play more than pray
keep on pose pose and pose
camhore @@

of cause can eat meat already
so our house or chinese traditional must have CHICKEN
our house got raise own hens so easily can get it and is nicer, healthier
lunch time we had lunch at 公公 house
this day is back to 娘家 house day
dinner time we back to 外公 house and eat
then spend rest of the time at there
ride bicycle
chit chat
jalan sini sana
oh ya~! i been bite by a red ant
so pain @@
night time my uncle aunties them came over to 外公 place
so this time got 3 children
this time more noisy
1 cry follow by the other
lucky i this time got bring psp
ivan let me 收买了
follow by other 2 also slowly keep quite and follow ivan
peace world back

CNY 1st day

smoky~
拜神时,那些香的烟

(youngest)charlie & dawn(eldest)
ah chee, ah wei, ah leng, rachel
no.5 no.3 no.4 no.2

rachel, ah leng, charlie, ah chee, ah wei, dawn

@_@

this was 26.01.09 midnight 12.00am
every year, when the time steps in CNY 1st day
is the time for our family to pray
this day is to pray 财神爷
is call as 接财神

after praying at home we will go to temple and pray
and 点大香
this year my mom, rachel and charlie can't pray, can't touch for those praying things
so just left me, my sis, ah wei, ah chee and my aunt
but went to temple time is just 3 of us pray
me, my sis and my aunt
we still can handle it but still ..... @@

up those 6 ladies are our family's 'thousand gold'
me is the jocker, environment improver, environment maker,funny girl
i got few names in my family
大笑姑婆，大家姐，傻婆
all of them skinny, tall and pak to before!
except me T.T

after back from temple was around 2.30am
talk awhile with cousin sis then went to slept
morning time we had 舞狮 come to our house
cause our family is sundries store
so have to invite 舞狮 to get a good opening year
don't know how long already i did not wake up early for this
when i small that time i sure will wake up to see 舞狮
but i already stop that for long time @.@
and in the 1st day of CNY we will only eat VEGE
haha
is vegetarian day
but mine is only for half day
cause i totally forget, cause i just realized after i ate biscuits
for long term vegetarian can eat biscuits
but not for short term
so i 破戒了

my 公公 and 外公 house was SO near
not even 1km
so 团圆饭 i will eat at 公公 house first
then next round at my 外公 house
same as last year
my 公公 house made steamboat
which i don't really like in CNY time
i prefer 外公 place (外婆 cook 九大簋)
and this year i spend lots more time in 公公 house (usually i'm not)
cause i chase those drama series with cousin sis
and we gamble also (lose!)

also play fireworks, firecrackers
play with CHILDREN
omg!
really can got scare by those children
they can keep on cry and cry and cry
but without tears
purpose is to get attetion
lucky i still can tahan
but the father already freak out

most important thing ANG PAO
is the day to start get ang pao
aunty and uncle ask me to stop get ang pao already
means want me to married
................................

26.01.2009

happy chinese new year
新年快乐
새해 복 많이바드세요

*김제중*
생일축하합니다
happy birthday
生日快乐

24/7

till today i'm still soaking in flour
customer's biscuits already done
and now is own biscuits
try 2 kind of new biscuits which is made by cheese
success~!
nice~!
but just do very little only
just try another new biscuits green pee biscuits
but
so ......... don't look nice for me
my mom also just made 1 tray of it only
haha
is so COLOURFUL the green coulour
the colour so scary , TOO GREEN already
i'll not touching that~!
haha
1st of all i don't like green pee and so not interested with that

oh ya~!
last week, i made kim chi (김치)
today i made kim chi soup
success too~!
even my mom also said i made better than her's
haha

is temporary stop for my full time biscuits gully job
haha
i take leave MYSELF
haha
while in my house i have no strength at all the get out from the house at day time
is really suffering to go out
because is TOO HOT at here!
super hot ah~!
and also hope i can get whiter
i gets dark already~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
is so dark ah~!!!!!!!!!!!
so scare~!
haizhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

soak in flour, butter, sugar, eggs

cornflake biscuits
look delicious right ^^

so BIG tin~~~~

chocolate chips~!

saw those nuts and chips~!

a tray of chocolate chips~!
nice leh~!

GIANT CHOCOLATE CHIPS
is the last 1 for today so i made that for myself~! ^^

2 days 2 nights PLAY with flour, butter, sugar, eggs
i said already is really easy doing those biscuits
BUT
the thing is you have to repeat again and again for those same steps for every block of butter
every block of butter is a new round of the procedure
and we had use 21 blocks of butter
that's mean that i have repeated for the same procedure for 21 times!
and till this moment we had done the only 1 customer's 17 tins of cornflake biscuits and 4 tins chocolate chips and 1 more tin of pineapple biscuits that HAVEN'T DO YET!
own biscuits HAVEN'T GOT YET!
actually i'll be doing this every year at this moment of time~!
and this time my mom just accept 1 customer
u know why?
because this is a COOL customer
already told her that will raise RM1.00 compare with last year's price
she said no problem at all, as long as my mom sell it to her
BUT
the other customers that's my mom's friends, they will said
"wah! so expensive, cheaper a bit la."
"you got give enough ingredients?" (this is the sentence my mom most angry with)
why why why and why
ask ask ask and ask
so frustrated, irritating
not say lan si........
but already buy for so many years then should know that my mom not that kind of shark seller
will give you the goods that worth for the price
if not how to maintain regular customers
and those ingredients use by my mom is real ingredients! 真材实料 ah!
we use BUTTER and not MAJERIN
chocolate chips we got add almond nuts and walnuts eh~!
and is lots eh!
go outside and see, see you can find something like this not~! HEK~!
don't forget is fully handmade
need human power and time and things that cant be calculate by money
(haha sounds so serious tim hahahahahahaha)

suffer to get this

this is the style i can maintain till before i sleep
haha
don't know can i style back not